Time Marches On .....

Hello...*echos*..hello hello hello .... Yes its been quite a while since I have written on this blog.. events in my life killed my muse... I was in a pretty low place for a long while and firmly believed this blog should only be about positive or at least negatives with a slant of humor for things to say. I had to grieve.. heal ...and begin again. Its been a journey of many emotions I hope never to go through again. I am not the same as I was, nor ever will be. But I am stronger ... and in that .. lies a nice positive :) Sooooo here begins Rosa Rambles blog post #93!!


Time Marches On ..........

There was a time in my life where I , like most of us do in our youth, felt I was immortal.. ne'er a thought crossed my mind about the ramifications of daredevil stunts, or crazy zany shinanigins. Climbing a tree as a tomboy with the only thought in my mind being. how fast can I get to the top?? A world of ramp jumps on rickety bicycles willingly attempted for the mere taunt of a double dog dare! I even met my future.. and now ex .. husband on a dare. Yes.. there was a time...


Funny thing about time marching on .. you dont notice it ......you dont hear it .. it just quietly plods along till one day you have THAT moment! Mine arrived June 23rd as I walked down the exit ramp of the same gigantic roller coaster Id been ridding for years before..

My legs were wobbly......my hands were sweaty ... and my forehead pounded like a jackhammer inflicting that one track thought to my mind .... DOH! DOH! DOH! DOH! When did this happen?

My love to ride the roller coasters .. daredevil heart.. I stood in line for 45 minutes.. watching those before me ascend to 310 feet in the air ... and plummet at 80 degree angle some 200+ feet to the ground below. I heard the screams.. the wails.. I had no thoughts as to my personal impending peril .. I looked to my kids and smiled and heard myself saying " This is gonna be sooo FUN!"

I board the coaster.. strapped in .. lock us down.. employee comes to check were intelligent enough to fasten a seatbelt.. yeah yah ya .. come on .. push the button already lets get this party started! wooot!......

We clink clink clink clink up the steep 310 foot ascent... a sound that recalls in me more feelings of comfort from my younger days than fear of what im about to subject myself too... the smooth release from the chain that drew us up the hill .. that rush of the wind on your face as your falling ... im still living in the moment the exhileration of senses.. anti gravity hang times.. we reach the bottom and rocket forward tilting sideways at 93mph.. and hit that first loop... and BANG .. i get that forehead slam of DOH DOH DOH ... down another hill and my tummy suddenly has that very green and not so good feeling ... another quick tilt to the left and I slide in my seat jarring my hip into the side of coaster.. OUCH .. hey .. when did that hurt before?? ... and the last super high speed spin and jet launch to from 70mph to 0 mph in 3.2 seconds.. finds my back being cracked and that eyeball widening experession is shown upon my face as my kids say " WOW that was...hey mom .. you ok?"

Sighs..... 20 years ago I was a daredevil ... not a care in the world ... 20 years later im standing in line for colossal coasters with quite minds thoughts of did I bring the asprin from the car... wheres the nearest trash can in case I need to hurl .. and my worst moment .. when I heard myself volunteer to hold the bags and save a 10 locker fee to avoid placing myself on a coaster that hurls me 80mph upside down 6 times to avoid the now certian headache Id endure as consequence.

*hangs head* Hello My name is Rosa and I am a former daredevil?? Ha ha probably not, for despite the headache, the hip ache, the back cracks, and the very concious awareness of walking all day in a theme park of giant steel monsters.. I still found joy in the adventure :) Time marches on and has left me with a bit more awareness of my limitations but the daredevil in me lives on and I'll still take that chance........ now and then........in pursuit of that one thought goal .. how fast can I get to the top !!

Todays Poem: (Penned in a very lonely lost low moment of my life ) But life's much happier now *smiles at Forsythe *

Dear Ol Lonliness:

Oh dear old Loneliness, why do you plague my life
weight upon my broken heart and fill my day with strife
Why do you show me others who have someone to hold
share their daily lives in pairs and hear sweet nothings often told

why must I face this role in life and on the path to roam
is it fates destiny that I'll always be alone
souls they come and souls they go each time I hope I'll see
a heart that truly cares and desires my company

but life is cruel, and timmings bad
moments of memories will be all thats had
Will I grow bitter and close up tight
withdrawl from friends and never feel right

I ache for a touch that never will be
I pine for a heart that doesnt for me
Tears, they flow and flood my soul
is this all there is or does fate have a goal ?

the music still plays but ive lost my feet
the melody rings yet the dance isnt sweet.

Thank you for reading :)

The Best of Intentions

Who says the darndest things only come from kids?

Recently my teenage son and I ventured out to our local zoo to take in the sights, sounds and adventures.. little did I know it would be my own best of intentions that would cause the appearance of more adventure than wanted.

My son and I , while waiting in line for a tram ride at the zoo, a group of young kids, about 3-4 graders, and their parents came to occupy the bench next to ours. They were enjoying the zoo and decided to pick that particular time to recall all the birds they'd seen thus far in their day...from robins to barn owls they voiced the sound each animal had made. I happen to look over and see my son who was wearing a expression that indicated he wasnt all that pleased haha An avid video game enthusiast, my son had willingly left his controller to come and spend the day with me. He leans in and whispers some comment about the bird noises. I replied perhaps a bit too perky, they were just socializing ...its good to do that.

My son mumbles in typical teenager attitude.. he didnt want to be "social" today..and then it happened...that moment ...when you have the best of intentions........and it comes out the worst nightmare HA HA . As a large crowd of zoo visitors passes by my son and I .. I say to him.. ( intending to encourage his get out of the house and socialize idea ) " Aww it feels good to get out and expose yourself more to new people!" We heard the inital "gasps!" and a few giggles but it was the look on my sons face holding back a laugh I knew was imminent to explode that turned my cheeks three shades of red !

So in this time of woes and wonderments about life, love, and friendships its good to see Fate still has a sense of humor to keep us all smiling ;)

Todays Poem:

Best laid plans inside your head
realitys paths you travel instead
hear what I mean , not what I say
foot in my mouth, oh lord did I pay!

One Quarter Thinking

Hello! *looks at date* well see there I squeaked this entry in under the Wow its been a month since I last wrote line :) Thank you to all of you who faithfully continue to read my rambles I apprecaite you greatly!

Okay so its taken a few weeks , I admit to some distractions * Cutter* and some real life agendas keeping me busy a blog topic idea hadnt yet struck me however today ......it did! and without haste here I am to share it all with you :)

Here in my town, I'm sure probably in yours too , we have a food store that has shopping carts you must pay a quarter to use and are returned your quarter upon returning the cart. A nice idea that cuts down on those unreturned carts that dent cars in the lot . Well today as I walked up to slide my quarter * which I spent 5 minutes trying to find in my purse* .. into the slot I noticed there was one already there!! A free cart! well its free anyway as you get your quarter back when you return it but ... a step in my procedure saved.. that little thing ...that made a smile !!! I looked around for an absent minded shopper to call out but I was alone. Just the shopping carts and I . I took the cart , grinning for that hey that was nice moment ... and went into the store. I did my shopping and loaded the items in my car... returning the cart to the outdoor collection area I by habit took the quarter out and pocketed it as I walked to my car.

Three steps later my concience taps me on the shoulder and I am reminded of the great feeling " I " had in finding a quarter already there so I turned around and walked back...reinserting the quarter in the slot . Driving home this thought hit me ...........what would most do ? Would they take the 25 cents? would it be by habit? by greed? by need ? what would you do if it were you?

Thanks for reading :D

A penny saved
is a penny earned
a quarter found
is a lesson learned

instant feel good
thrill was had
by thoughtful someone
or forgetfully sad

what would you do
if morals are in question
would it be an action
you'd be proud to mention

Thanks again for reading !

Fresh View, New Perspective

Hello Everyone! Well looky me I have remembered how to post a picture in this blog!

Its those little victories in life that really make us appreciate how far we've come in our life right?

So if you looked at the pic on the left, and its just human nature to do so , you will see that yep, I have some new glasses. Thank you's to all my friends who have sent such kind and positive comments regarding how they look, or how I look in them lol. Most appreciated!

But I find in additon to my new view of my old world ... I'm getting a fresh perspective on more than just eyesight.

Sterotypes and prejudgments... I've always strived to be a pretty positive person in my life, look for the good in all things even when bad times happen.. theres a silver lining right? When the optomitrist told me I'd have to wear glasses all my life now, I'm not proud to say I was feeling " Oh great... now im going to look dorky and get judged for stereotype of wearing glasses labels you".

Prejudging........that was my first mistake! I have found the reactions I've recieved in this new attachment to my appearance to be in fact the very opposite of what I'd expected. Its left me feeling more than a bit guilty for my self assesments and stereotyped expectations, whereas I never intentionally judged anyone I know who wears glasses, I guess society had me feeling wearing glasses was a handicap and boy was I wrong!

Having a clearer view of the day to day things I do I'm jsut a happier person, I am more productive in things I accomplish... I find with a sharper view I notice more things now that I may have let go unseen before. I do not feel handicapped for having these eye opening lenses I feel in fact like I am participating in the world more being able to see clearly and appreciate what I can do now with clearer vision.

So thats it, my little profession of ignorance... I let what I thought society's viewed stereotype of wearing glasses hinder me from seeing the real view of how wonderful a impact having glasses really is for society's citizens! Do you have any prejudgements in life you've found to be just the opposite?

Its okay my visions fine

I can still read the sign

a little fuzzy, perhaps so

but still clear enough I can know

eye exam I need to have glasses??

surely not! .... folks will harass's

Don the frames .. my view pristine

prejudgements wrong now I've seen

happier world when vision's its best

not a bad thing at all ....I'll loudly profess.!!!

Thanks for reading :)

Gold Star

Greetings to all of you kind hearts who continue to come and read my wayward thinking! One of these days I really must learn some technical skills and figure out how to see just how many of you there truly are ...of course my imagination is probably far kinder to my ego than reality might prove to be hahahha!

You know when your in school the teacher would give you a gold star for a great accomplishment! Or one of your parents or family member would give you a "gold star"
for a personal accomplishment, as we get older the stars become trophys, and as we get older still they might occasionally come in the form of a attaboy at work or friends thumbs up! wtg! but every now and then .... you have a moment that you really wish.. it wasnt too cool to brag about your accomplishment!

As I sat in the dentist chair this week at the end of my cleaning I heard the hygentist say " Wow, this is what we really like to see...all your teeth are in great condition and no cavaties :) " So many times in life we have a wonderful thing happen but .. its not considered socially acceptable to run out in the street screaming WOOO HOO I have no cavaties!!! So here today.. I'm making my own opportunity to brag my gold star moment that life might not care so much about!
41 years old and still no cavaties!no dental work done *yet* lol(applause ) and I'm giving you the chance to do the same! Mark your moment of pride! share your story of spectacular show off! Post your particular period of praise! and consider this your Gold Star for it all!!

Thanks for reading this silly little ramble of mine! You all are the most wonderful friends!


Todays Poem:

Golden Moments here and past
a hearty praise said to last
so proud of you and who you are
wtg! *pins Gold star *

2009

A scant few days are all that remain of 2008. Its at this time of year we all do it, we get reflective on our lives and what we've done or didn't get around to doing, or wish we'd done... and yes ..wish we'd not done. I am no different. Its been on my mind a lot this holiday season just where life took me in this past year. I have had a lot happen and have had not enough happen. Thats life I guess. Its been a difficult year and yet... in the growth I'm finding... it will most probably turn out to be one of my best years of my life.. in the long run.

2009 is fast approaching and we toss around those words like resolution, promise, goal.. things we say to better our view on where we are and give ourselves hope we'll be even better in the new year. I could easily turn this post into just that .. a list of things I hope better in my life in the new year... Lord knows.. I could use it ...but .....instead Im striving to leave you all ending 2008 with a smile where this blog is concerned. So here for your funny bone tickling pleasure
is my slant on the top ten New Years Resolutions of 2008

1) Time with Family and Friends: yes lets time them!! When that alarm goes off in the morning jump right in with a stop watch and cheer them on through their morning routine! coach them into a better time of up and out the door!

2) Fit in Fitness: Yes... lets do that shall we! Let us feel the burn of the starbucks coffee on our tongue as we try to drink it way too soon. Let us put in ten more reps of hand to mouth as we hold the fork that slides the yummy starch laiden pasta into our mouth! Let us break a sweat in the 15 minutes of jumping and leg kicks and cave man grunt yells it requires to slide into those "what the heck am I thinking" jeans!

3) Tame the bulge: I dare say this is a piggy back to 2 ...perhaps thats why its got a bulge? Lets give it due credit however and offer this helpful piece of unsolicited advice... if running to reduce your bulge should blacken your eyes from slap impact... disregard resolution number 3 :))

4) Quit Smoking: I have never been a smoker... I have known several who have. Smoking can have positives and negatives... Be skinny.. long and lean like a chimney shape.....but puff heavily like a chimney. I know quitting is hard and really shouldnt be a laughing matter.. to those of you who are striving for that goal.. in all seriousness I wish you the very best! to those of you who have achieved this goal! Congratulations!

5) Enjoy life more : I think this one is going to have to be on your own personal perspectives.. If 2008 was spent enjoying life by beliefs and morals.. then to enjoy it more in 2009 would imply breaking those moral boundries and expanding those beliefs... I cannot in good concience encourage any of you to go out and break boundries and exceed your good morals :P

6) Quit Drinking: I see why this resolution pops up every year on the list.. its not specific enough. Quit drinking conveys we simply stop partaking of all liquids. We'd all fade away without proper fluids! I say pick a liquid and make that your goal. I will quit drinking *****
if you try , perhaps we'll find a bit different resolution on next years list hmm?

7) Get out of Debt: Now here is a good resolution. Society has us in such a hamster wheel does it not... We need money to purchase things to meet our basic needs... we have to work to make the money... in order to work we need things like clothes, food, car, those misc items required to keep our morale up to satisfactory levels sufficient to allow us to be productive at the job we need to work to make the money to meet our basic needs... when the math is unbalanced and the supply is less than the demand... its no wonder were swimmin in "Da B's Tea " ( De B T ) .
Bee's Tea sounds so much more pleasant ...go with me on this one.

8) Learn Something New: Well .......I think New Years Day at 12:01 would cover this resolution for most of the partying population... isnt it at 12:01 when those overly intoxicated souls try out their best pick up lines? Okay perhaps not. this actually is a good resolution... everday is potential for learning something. education, socially, financially, globally... dream big ! If youd like to start small ... how about learning how many minutes it takes to finish off the pint of ice cream in the freezer?

9) Help Others: HELP ( Hand Everyone Less Politics ) ??? ( Have Everything Legally Paid ) ....( Happy Ether Lan Port ) ... ( Hang Essentials Low Please ) ( Hand Exceptional Lease Price )however you choose to abide by resolution number 9. Best of luck to you in your efforts!

10) Get Organized: When I master my PDA,...pdq.....so I can AFK... from the PC . When I can open up my inventory and not have to spend 5 minutes looking for my shoes... when I can open up my rl closet and not spend 5 minutes looking for my shoes. When my hanging file folders no longer double as storage bins of useless misc. sentimental treasures.. then......and only then ...can I claim victory over resolution number 10.

I hope you have all enjoyed this little attempt at making you smile. If I dont happen to see you
before the new year dawns.. may you find 2009 brings you many blessings and triumphs! I love the toast that always says .....may the worst day of your future.....be the best day of your past!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Take Care Everyone! Thanks for reading.


Todays Poem:

Lines Ive said , words conveyed
another poem on this blog is laid
rhythmic text to is played
entertainment to you I gave

New Years Dawns so very near
and resolutions were soon to hear
promise this, and strive for that
quit smoking, and lose the fat.

In all you do and all you say
in how you try to change your ways
never forget this ..as I end ..
its for how you are ....I'm glad to call friend.

Thanks so very much ! God Bless and Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays

Its Holiday time, our thoughts and ambitions focus toward giving and sharing and enjoying the gifts that this time of year brings, more than the latest eletronics or fashions, the coolest new music cd's, or those clever creative gifts imagination and whimsy can combine to bring. The gifts of life, love, laughter with friends and family. The greatest gift our faith humbles us to appreciate recieving.

In my home growing up we had a particular way of enjoying Christmas morning... Dad who was an early riser would roust us kids at the * come on as a kid especially teen years who gets up that early* 5 or 6 a.m. we'd all share donuts or pastries and OJ * dad had coffee* , I suspect now in my adult age this was to give him an edge.. caffiene to wake him up while us kids yawned and marveled at his energy?? Hmmm.... anyway.... we enjoyed pastries and OJ and then traditional gift opening.

Opening gifts in my home was always the same... someone usually picked by Dad.. passed out the gifts to various family members... then one at a time , often starting with the youngest..which I was so that worked out well, opened one gift...everyone else sat and watched. Dad would tell me later... this was to ensure we kids grew up with lessons of value for showing kindness. Seeing someone appreciate what youd done went a long way toward encouraging the desire to want to give more to others. Youngest to the oldest wed go around our small circle opening gifts.. some years were lean and it wasnt long till were done.. some were well blessed and it would be a hour before we were through... but all christmas's left me personally with the same feeling.. joy.. Joy for family, joy of giving and being given too .. just feeling happy for the joy of everything.

In later years we started to have the custom of writing a letter to family member and putting it in the tree. A heartfelt wish or telling to that individual on what they meant to our lives and giving thanks for Jesus and his gift he gave us all.

What traditions do you have in your holiday celebrations? Posing by the Christmas tree for photos? Specific food dish that is prepared just so ? A object or trinket set out in same spot year after year in comfort or tribute to someone special? Drop a comment down and share some of your traditions for the holidays :)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! Thanks for reading :)

Todays Poem:

GASP! :

Who is that roly poly man
dressed in a suit of red
hes got a great big rosy nose
and white fluff surrounds his head

he totes a bag of red satin
laiden down with joys and treats
and boots as black as night
are attached to his feet

He's placing gifts under the tree
each one is brightly wrapped
and as he bends each time down
bells jingle on his cap

I am so excited and happy
to watch him do his task
there's much I'd like to know of him
but now's not the time to ask

I am crouched down in awe
here hidden on the stairs
silent and bewildered
at what I'm seeing there

He doesn't know I see him
and I am very glad
for I am just in awe to find
that SANTA's really DAD!!!

Merry Christmas!