Friday, November 21, 2008

Breaking Point

Human spirit can endure the most amazing things... we hear stories of impossible survival and feats of super human performance I know even I have found in life's trials and tragedys I am stronger than I ever thought I would be...but what makes that breaking point to where the spirit just stops trying?

When life deals you punches in such a frequent rate you find you've fallen to the ground and have little care of rising up from it all. When you find the doctors news regarding the latest test isnt the hopeful diagnosis you'd been wanting ....when you find what you thought was your true love finds his own love in someone else... when you work hard at something your whole life and
in course of a day.. forces you have no control over blow in and leave you with little left.. when you give your heart away only to find .. its not wanted. How does the human spirit take such pains and push through to a brighter day?

Is it faith? Is it how were raised? Is it our genetics?? What drives us to keep going when every thought in our heads tells us to quit? What drives you in the dark times to keep a bright outlook! Ive had two people in my life ...take their own life due to sorrows they found unable to cope with... Ive seen how it solves little and leaves even more pain. Life is pretty low at this point and a quick fix to escape it all for good might sound good in theroy but I think theres a
little human spirit yet left to push through and do my best to prevail for brighter times.. but it
just leaves me curious.. what sparks that human spirit in others ???


Todays Poem:

Darkest days suspend thy head
banish thoughts its easier dead
hard times come.. but hard times go
and better days.. you'll have to show

lost at love and it sure smarts
but with every ending there's a new start
friends rally and do their best
to cheer and enourage and ease the stress

Human spirit is alive and thriving
pushing the darkness to brightness surviving
darker days might reign on this day
but tomorrow's news.. " It'll be okay!"

Thanks for reading

Friday, November 14, 2008

Color Blind.....

Is it just me or for the past several numerous years have we listened to politicians preach to us about being color blind? Wasnt that a lesson we as people were taught since civil rights.. to ignore the color of skin.. .to embrace one race.. the HUMAN race.. I think that was the overall concept conveyed by some of our countrys more prominant leaders right? So my question is
in all that energy spent on obsolving segregation and promoting one unified race.. of humankind.. why was the vast majority of the headlines regarding the United States Presidental race all screaming " FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT!" ??? Any thoughts?


Color Blind:

Red or white
yellow or black
were taught that color
is not where its at.

Man is man
or so they say
the color he is
should not convey

when i voted
for presidents position
the color of their skin
was not in my opinion.

So why when Obama
takes the title earned
the color of his skin
most headlines now spurn.

Thanks for reading.

Reality Bytes....

We see articles and hear stories all the time about those who indulge in the internet and get swept away to lose touch with reality.. it bites hard on the life
you knew and disillusions you to feeling your virtual reality is reality. I have to say after nearly five years living in both worlds.. I can neither fully agree or disagree with ither of those broad statements.

When I first came to indulging a online game my real life was not in any serious turmoil, it was a suggestion to "talk to folks" give a online game a try.
Being a social type of person, I took to this bonified "chat room" like a fish to water. I enjoyed the interactive banter, the thrill of kind hearted text statements causing smiles in others. It was fun. It was in moderation. It was good.

However, in the four plus years I have participated in online games I have seen many a friend fall victim to some level of online addiction. I upon recent hard look at my own life the past four years would have to in all honesty claim I am probably one among them.

Initally online socializing was not in seeking anything other than simple curiousity to see what its all about.. time passes and life changes as it always does and suddenly that moderate log on.. turns into a daily occurance in seeking that self esteem boost that real life no longer brings... and time passes.. to the point you
wish your real life held the same happy group of souls your virtual life does..

you develop emotions and attachments to people in manners You convince yourself are geniune....real.... and for some cases... it really is ... but in some.. when real life deals a blow that sets you reeling... having your best friends be thousands of miles away.. makes that need for a shoulder to lean on a bit more difficult. And if you fall in love... reality can certianly come bite you hard in its reminder.. your relationship as real as it feels, and seems...and you believed... is nothing more than im's and pixels bridging two lonely souls in virtual space.

Im not in any way saying real life and virtual life cant both be shared and enjoyed in healthy moderation.. and for most of the worlds gamers.. that is a good working chemistry and I would be the last person to discount the importance of virtually made friends impacting your life happily! However, just caution any of you who, like me, find all the best friends all around the world being the sweet treasure they are to your life... just cant be there when you need that real life contact.

INDULGE in games!! ENJOY and have fun!!! I whole heartedly encourage that as I did find a bounty of great blessings in my times I dipped a toe into virtual reality!! But just be cautious in doing so is my point of this post ... keep a perspective of
whats real and give some time to reality's presence too, and its my hope any of you reading this will be spared a reality byte :D

Todays Poem:

Reality Byte pretend or real
the warmth of friendship is what I feel
addiction or attention daily gave
bonded friendships is what I made

sincere meant joy each log in gained
or real lifes attentions unintenitonally refrained
moderation, jubilation can be shared by all
too much of one or the other and happiness will fall

Onliners enjoy each moment
be it the day or night
but keep a realistic eye out
to avoid Reality Byte!